drv control

Not sure who is controlling who here. I got a drv so that I would not miss any of my favorite shows while I was at college, work or studying. Now, I am unemployed and I have graduated. I had a lot of time on my hands, so much time that I found tons of shows that I wanted to record and save for later to watch. Then I got busy. My shows added up and I was running out of room to record more shows. I needed to watch the shows or delete them. Though I was extremely tired, I spent the last few days staying up until 3am or so watching the shows. The drv was supposed to make me more free and allow me to go about my life without worrying about missing shows. Now I am missing life to watch my shows.

Balance

It is all about balance. That's one of the problems that my family and I have. We don't see eye to eye on the topic of balance. They think I am too strict with kids. I think I am only strict because no one else is. After all, kids need balance. You can't have everyone being really strict or no one being strict. You need to have the correct balance of strictness and _______ (whatever the opposite of strictness is). So, when everyone is mad at me for telling the kids they can't have two ice cream cones in one day, I should get to be the one who is mad. Mad at them for making me be the strict one. Who said I wanted to play bad cop all my life? Not me.

And the worst part is that this is a recent development, one that is driving me into too many fights with the family. Fights about what the kids each, fights about if they should get a time out, fights, fights, fights. When I had my first nephew, I was the fun one. His parents were there to be the 'bad cops', the ones who said 'no'. It was my job to be the fun one, to fill his belly with ice cream, to play with, to spoil and then to send home. This worked great for awhile. Then, a few nieces and nephews later, I was suddenly the bad cop. I think the more kids that showed up, the more I tried to make organization out of chaos. This is also when the others seemed to have lost the energy or will to raise the kids to be the best they can (by enforcing some rules and having BALANCE in their lives).

Yup, balance, it's all about balance.