buy me love

Figured it out today. My brother is trying to buy his son's love. My brother makes me mad a lot but this recent thing really makes me mad. My other nephew had a birthday but there was no present from my brother (this other nephew's uncle). Bro claimed he had no money for a present. So, a few days later, my nephew (my bro's son) is at my house, being babysat. Bro comes to pick his son up. Bro brings $30 worth of brand new toys. This sets me off but I say nothing. What the ***** is that about? How dare my bro get so much for his kid for no good reason when he has a nephew going without a birthday present. If said nephew (the bday boy) was my son, I don't think I'd ever forgive my bro. That is just uncalled for. You can't claim poverty and then spend money for no reason. So, anyway....the reason my bro spends money on his son is that he feels guilty for having a job (which he needs to support his son). I understand this guilt because I had it for a year after getting my dog. I think the guilt is bigger with a kid though. I still don't think that means Bro's son gets tons of toys (for no reason) and nephew goes without. How about spending some of that $30 on the birthday boy? Conclusion: Sometimes Bro is a big freakin' jerk. Other conclusion: Sharing feelings on here is nice and helps a bit but I think I'd have felt better if I got to scream at bro at least a little bit.

Girl / Lady / Woman / Female

I wanted to share some information with you about myself but I was stuck on how to do it. I wrote 'I am a 27 year old female'. I didn't like the word 'female', it seemed so medical. Then I wrote, 'I am a 27 year old woman'. I erased that too, feels so old. I am simple and fun loving, not some uptight business woman or something like that. Lady seemed like the next choice but was too prissy. The only other word I could think of was 'girl' but I certainly should have outgrown that label by now. Even if kids are always asking me if I am an adult or how come I am not a "real" grownup (more on this another time).



So, here's what I came up with............ I am 27 years old, and for now, I refuse to categorize myself with the terms currently available here in the US. Maybe in the future, I will feel more like a 'woman' or I'll want to be more 'lady'-like but for now those just aren't me. Maybe others feel this way, maybe others don't. Either way, it doesn't matter to me.